"My experience taught me many lessons about God. It reminded me to be always thankful for health, for it is a blessing that we often fail to see. I was also reminded that everything is in God’s hands—everything!"
A few months before the lockdown, I was sent for a two-day Intensive Care Unit crash course, where I was briefed on the ins-and-outs of basic intensive care. Three days after the Circuit Breaker started, I was at home enjoying my day off when my boss called me to tell me that I was being activated to go to the ICU.
The urgency in her voice caused a deep uneasiness in me and in hindsight, I realise what I was feeling at the time: fear. That was also the first day that seating restrictions began on the trains and buses, and seeing the “Leave this seat empty” stickers made me feel even more scared.
I told my mum, sister, and aunt about my deployment, and they, too, worried for my safety. They said many things to comfort me, but the one thing that stuck with me was their reminder to pray and to trust that my life was in God’s hands. It might sound dramatic now, but at that moment, when Covid-19 cases and mortality rates were rising around the world, the fear of the unknown was tangible.
I still remember the day when I was assisting a “suspect” case (who later turned out to be Covid-19 positive) and my glove broke. This meant that I had skin contact with the patient! I panicked.
For the next 14 days, I prayed that I would remain Covid-free and for God to preserve my health and protect my elderly mother at home. I informed my seniors and monitored myself for two weeks—a long two weeks. At the end of the 14 days, however, I did not feel any symptoms and was still healthy. Thank God!
Working in the ICU required me to stay up to date with the pathology of the coronavirus. Seeing the intricacies of the human body and how it could be affected by Covid-19 was captivating: I saw how tiny and seemingly unimportant processes, when in dysfunction, could result in a multitude of problems, such as clot formation, heart failure, respiratory distress, and kidney failure. Yet, somehow, everything works perfectly when we are healthy, allowing us to function as we do every day. How truly amazing! It reminded me that we are all designed by the greatest Creator, Artist, and Engineer in the world.
My experience taught me many lessons about God. It reminded me to be always thankful for health, for it is a blessing that we often fail to see. I was also reminded that everything is in God’s hands—everything! We really don’t have to worry, because He is with us all the time. Even when times are dark and we face the unknown, there is no need to fear because the most awesome God is with us. Our God is into the smallest details: He knows our every thought and need. Working at the frontlines of the battle against Covid-19 has grown my faith and confidence in God. When I encounter difficult or scary situations, I know God is with me.